I’m terrified of opening up. I would rather keep all my thoughts inside my head than say them aloud. No matter how hard I try and how hard other people try to get me to open up, it doesn’t get easier over time. And that, above anything else will scare people away. And I’m sorry.
However, lately I’ve been wondering why I cry more often than before when I am truly happy overall. I think I figured it out. You allow me to. And I feel again. At this time last year, I decided once again that I wasn’t going to let myself fall and I definitely wasn’t going to show any tears or weakness. And I didn’t for a really long time. And now I’m happy and I sometimes still feel the need to cry. But I’m not afraid to do it anymore. Thank you.