7 Thoughts I’ve had this Week

I realize that I have neglected my blog and my faithful readers for quite some time now. And I am very, very sorry!

I have been thinking about the next chapter of my life and how I am going to continue writing my story. I will let you all in on my secret plan very soon! But for now, I will give you some of the thoughts I have had over the past week.

1. I realized that I yearn for a successful marriage much more than I yearn for a successful career. Now before everyone gets all feministy on me, let me tell you why I think this is the case. It came as a shock to me when I realized this, as I have always had big career goals for myself. What I realized is that in today’s society, it is so much harder to have a successful marriage than it is to have a successful career. And at the end of the day, your career won’t keep you warm at night. It won’t listen to you vent when life gets to be too much, and it won’t be at your funeral when you die. A successful marriage, in my opinion, means a happy, and successful family which is ultimately what I want. If I die never having a successful marriage and/or a happy family life, I will feel as though much of my life was a waste. If I die never having a successful career, I don’t think I will be as disappointed in myself.

2. If there are multiple people in a “selfie” shouldn’t it be called a “selvsie?”

3. I can’t believe that I’m graduating college in less than two months.

4. What am I going to do with my life? How am I going to pay off my student loans? How can I make money for this damn blog of mine? Will I ever be able to buy my own house?

5. Babies are so much smarter than us.

6. I really wish I knew what my cat is thinking.

7. Why is it so cold out? I packed most of my winter clothes already? I guess I’ll just have to stay home and watch Netflix all day.

Semester Wrap-up

Considering my semester has been over for about a week now, I suppose it’s about time that I reflect on my hardest one yet. All I have left are 28 credits of electives. “Evaluating Contemporary Television” is going to be a blast. I’m hoping that the rest of my college career is smooth sailing from here. Maybe I can actually have enough fun to experience college in a way that I haven’t before. Maybe I will be able to sleep and not be so stressed and relax just enough to go out on the weekends or skip a class or two. Unless of course, I decide to apply to law school right away. And then the application process will consume my life.

I realized something lately that made me realize the huge differences between relationships nowadays and relationships previously. We have the ability to be in contact with our significant others all the time. The only reason I realized this is because my amazing boyfriend is enjoying a much deserved vacation in Italy for the next ten days. He can text me when he has wifi but it has been very hard because of the amount of time we generally spend with each other or talking to each other. Since we started talking, we have texted every day for the past two years. Of course, we take time to sleep and work and we are not one of the couples who spends every second of every day texting each other. It’s just a very strange feeling to be across the world from the person you love and have limited communication. I think this generation takes for granted the access and ease at which we can communicate with people all over the world. At this point all I can think about is that it should, ideally, get easier every day. And I cannot wait for the reunion!  

The American Dream?

I have spent my life judging the distance between American reality and the American dream.
Bruce Springsteen 

I’ve been thinking a lot about “the American Dream” lately.  I’ve talked about it in a couple of my classes and I’m curious as to what people think of “The American Dream.”  I asked my dad what he believed “the American Dream” was today and he simply said, “I don’t know anymore.” That’s just sad to me.  My dad is a baby boomer, he has worked as a Denver Police officer for over 30 years, he has provided for three daughters and is helping to provide for his three grandsons, he is the epitome of working hard and what does he get for that? I’m sure he won’t get any Social Security money. He is retiring later than he thought. And he couldn’t afford to send any of his daughters to college. So I wonder, is “the American Dream” a myth?

Obviously the dream has morphed over time.  My mom said that the American Dream was having the opportunity to be successful, when I asked her what success was, she said providing for your family.  So has she achieved the American Dream? Is struggling to make ends meet and working jobs that you hate just so you can provide for your family really the American dream? 

I think about what my version of the American Dream is, and I think it is your, individual happy ending.  Whatever seems like “happily ever after” to you, is your American Dream. That would mean that my American Dream is being able to have a happy, whole, family and practice law.  And then I think about the hard work aspect.  I am a firm believer in hard work and I think it should be celebrated. But then I think about the work I’m doing and whether or not it will help me and I feel doubtful. 

I’ve said this before, everything I have done to this point since sophomore year has been in pursuit of one thing.  Every decision I’ve made, has all been to help me along the path to Law School. But then, life gets in the way.  My plan was to not work this semester so that I could volunteer and spend my extra time studying for the LSAT. Well, money is tight in my family and a job is a necessity for me. So I have two. A manager position and another internship position with my school’s legal services.  Because of this, I do not have much free time.  I still do my best to get my school work done but it seems like a never-ending task. So inevitably, my GPA is not going to be great this semester. My GPA wasn’t great two semesters ago, so I worked my butt off last semester to change it, and even getting better grades overall, it dropped by .006 points. 

I work harder than a lot of the students I know and my chances of getting into law school are probably not that great. So what is that? How is that fair? How fair is it that a number on a transcript has so much weight to your future? If I don’t get into law school, I truly believe it will be an injustice.  I am so passionate about the law and the Constitution that I need to be a lawyer.  It is my job.  But already, I am questioning whether or not my American Dream will be a reality. 

My generation is so cynical.  But that’s what we’ve learned.  That’s how we keep ourselves grounded.  We can’t all get into Law School.  One person’s acceptance is another’s one’s denial. And there’s no changing that. No matter how hard we work, I still don’t believe it will be good enough. There is always someone better. 

Maybe that’s why it’s called “the American Dream.” Because it truly is a dream, that not everyone will have.  Some may have to live through an American nightmare. 

So I ask you, what are your thoughts on the American Dream?

I’m Halfway There!

Tomorrow is the first day of my third year in college. 

Here is what my day will consist of:

Moral and Social Problems

History of Political Thought (Least excited for this)

Adolescent Literature (Tied for most excited)

Principles of Animal Biology

Writing Online (Tied for most excited)

 

Looking at the textbooks and my works schedules, I’m thinking I may have bitten off more than I can chew this year… Let’s do this. 

Why hello Midterms, you are looking awfully ugly this year

Here’s to the students. 

To the students who work their way through school, and barely have time to sleep, let alone study, here’s to you. 

To the students who are considered average, trying to do better but don’t feel like they’ll ever get there, here’s to you. 

To the students who don’t get enough praise, here’s to you. 

Here’s to the students. 

You’re all doing a wonderful job, keep working hard and keep your eye on the prize. 

My week at a glance

Sunday (Today): By midnight tonight I am supposed to have an online test finished for my Pop Culture class. This wouldn’t be a problem normally but last night I tried to take the test and after the second question my internet stopped working. I refreshed the page and I was graciously informed that I had already used my one attempt at the test and that my score was a 2/30. I emailed my teacher immediately but of course it’s the weekend and he has a family so chances of him checking the email in time as well as giving me the chance to retake it are slim. 

Monday: Give a 4-6 minute speech with a visual aid on the history of high heels. The shortest I’ve been able to get the speech to is 6 minutes and 3 seconds. However, we do get 30 seconds leeway time before we lose points and thanks to my wonderful nervous system, I am bound to talk faster when in front of the class than when in front of a mirror. 

And my best friend’s birthday. I have no money though so I have to come up with something nice to do for free for her that’s not ridiculously lame or cheesy. 

Tuesday: My two least favorite classes: Principles of Writing and Rhetoric and Logical and Critical Thinking.

Wednesday: Pop Culture Paper due, rough draft of American Literature paper due. Neither of which I’ve started. 

Thursday: My two least favorite classes: Principles of Writing and Rhetoric and Logical and Critical Thinking.

Friday: American Literature paper due. However, this will not be turned in by me directly as I  will be on my way to see my idol, P!nk perform live in Dallas with my best friend. It is a much needed, deserved break that I cannot wait for. I have my outfit picked out and everything! 

Saturday: Head back from Dallas while my mind is still blown from the amazing night before.